WOW!

Well I have not been on here in the longest time..and I must say I have not been keeping up with everything that has been going on. The last months in 2009 have been CRAZY and sometimes I wonder if i'm going to make it. This wedding planning is going to be the death of me. I have had a hard time with Lan's step sister and her wedding being in October 201o.

At first we had planned on Nov 6, 2010 and it was going to be an outside wedding at Hightower Falls. But everytime anyone asked me about the wedding I felt like I couldn't be excited because i had to worry about Carrie (the sister). It was like anything I was planning I had to wonder if she was doing the same thing or if she was going to be mad at me for choosing that something. So on a ride to the mart with my mom, sis, and friends...we thought why not move it to December 2010. With all the christmas lights and candles it would be more of the romantic setting that I am looking for. Well that was a great idea to me, because I LOVE this time of the year. Well now...I'm almost still at the same spot just a couple steps to the right. I still can't find anywhere for the wedding to take place. Not to mention it is so depressing the way Carrie (the mean sis) is trying to rub how far along she is with her wedding. It is so sad to me because I thought this was supposed to be the fun part....all the planning. But for some reason I am at a screaching hault and the train isn't going to start up again.

Not to mention I can't find anyone to help me make the decisions about the wedding with me. Because me and lan live so far apart and work such different hours, we can't ever get together! It's like my mom doesn't want the wedding to go on....I know she does....but she doesn't seem to want to help. And my Maid of Honor (my sis) she def doesn't care because I can't get her to sit down with me for 2 min to help look at stuff.

So all in all I am a little depressed that the wedding planning has come to a hault and it seems like i'm not going anywhere. I mean I have less than a year and all I have is a dress and a date. But I need WAY more than that to pull off a wedding!!!!!!